Esperia smiled sheepishly at Alisa's words, shaking her head lightly as she dispelled the illusion of her disguise. The Mindflayer was surprised by the hug, perhaps the reason why she had led down her guard and soon felt tears starting to roll down her cheeks. She opened her mouth, attempting to speak but no sound came, instead forcing her to project her voice mentally into Alisa's thoughts. "After I heard about the chaos happening at Talaz Lagaar I decided to investigate for myself. I firmly believed the knowledge Gaia bestowed onto me would have helped me discover a decisive clue in my research, not just on my personal search to discover if I could use my Obscura for a good purpose, but also to find a potential cure to the plague that troubled the island."
She lowered her head into Alisa's shoulder, sobbing silently as she continued. "Instead a man called Kishin disrupted my research and led me to getting arrested by the local authorities there. They were deaf to my reasons, and they brutally sacrificed me to the Fractured Sky, for reasons unknown to me..."
Esperia went silent, leaning her head back a little to look at Alisa as she established her mental link again, the psionic gift of the Mindflayer projecting her feelings of anger and sorrow to Alisa as she resumed speaking through her telepathy. "I was trapped in a different realm, a realm of infinite darkness, the darkness that ate away at my very body and soul. Despite my struggles, I would have succumbed if not for the presence of another... There was a being in that realm that tried to communicate with me, and through our interactions, I retained my sanity, and while my mind is still my own... My body is as you can see, corrupted to its core."
She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "A Mindflayer... a subspecies of what they call Voidlings, the moment I show my true form to someone they instantly grab for the nearest weapon to chase me off. Even the very people I tried to help in the past only see a monster in me."
She raised a hand, attempting to gently rest it against Alisa's cheek. "I can't blame them, for to the outside world I might have become just that... They can't see the fact I was once someone who championed the cause of Earthland. But now... this treatment of being an outcast frightens me. I couldn't even enter the guild hall without using my magic to conceal my true appearance from our friends. To the world I became simply a monster from the void... and it hurts, to know the very same people I fought for, that I wanted to protect now scorn me."
A tentacle wigged lightly around her waist as if it was trying to comfort her by patting her stomach in an affectionate way. "I don't know what to do anymore Ali... I'm tired... I have no more fight left to fight in me..."