Indeed their relationship was looser. Michael just wasnt aware how loose it was. He was under the impression it was just them 3, but oh boy was there more. Still it was something he wasnt aware and perhaps he didnt want to know.
But that was a story for another time. He figured Sofia deserved to know what bothered him. He laid down and looked at the sky, not wanting to really look at her as the story still bothered him. Its just the pain was temporary quelled by a certain high
"When I was a kid, my parents died. Got killed by someone. I dunno who, I wasnt there when it happened. Im sure if I was there I probably would've met the same fate. But Im here and alive... and now after all these years... when the thing at Stella happened I saw them, after all that time I saw them. I was glad to see my family. But as I asked them who done it, they didnt tell me.... they tried to bullshit me how revenge was bad or how it was dangerous.... but bullshit. That was my closure... Not knowing is worse than knowing. Its an open wound, knowing someone wronged me and my family and is walking somewhere out there free without a care. I know revenge wont get me anything. And I dont expect it to make me feel better. But.... its just a chapter of my life I want to close. As it is now, its like an open wound that keeps festering and gnawing at me. Someone hurt me and I dont know who was it that caused me pain and turned me into.... this"
He was a bit vague by what 'this' meant. But it was more like he felt like a monster. He was a fairly a more different and gentle and fair person. Now he is an asshole and he is aware of that. More moody, violent, selfish, angry, impulsive. More animalistic and cruel. Sure Blue Pegasus doesnt see that side of him, because he represses it. But he still has that primal anger in him that he keeps shut. He was essentially 'damaged goods'. A person who was shattered. Someone who has somewhat undergone a process of healing only to have it be reverted back again, all that progress lost. The event at Stella opened an old wound and now it felt like it was bleeding more than ever.
The mermaids did help, but they were a bandaid to a greater problem. He just didnt know what to do. Well, at least he wasnt in a huge despair now that he spoke to Sofia. So thats a plus