LeeAnn stood on the edge of the cliff seeing the breath taking view most would walk the whole country. If she ever retired from the Rune Knights, this is where she would live. "Why couldn't I be a cat, a dog, or even a flea? I would for sure not be in much pain for long" she whispered. The wind whirled around her as dead leaves were caught within a reach. She was starting to find it pointless to find her mother, to become the best, or even to live. "What's the point anymore? I live. I give. I hurt. I burn. I suffer. What do you want from me? WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE THIS PAIN?! WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME" she hissed outloud. LeeAnn yelled at the mountains as if she was expecting someone to answer. Concord came rushing over a bit worried, but knew she had a lot on her mind. Some of this she did to herself as well, but she already knew that and didn't want to be reminded. He stayed silent. Anything said may or may not make things worse. She huffed from anger. "It's like Hans is never good enough for people, take things away from me, ruin current thoughts...why do I care so much? People give me the most easiet or the most difficult jobs that would make or break my life. Why is it so hard to keep family? I heard my brother...even without me he would be the same...Hans and you are the only people who actually give a shit. Kon probably doesn't want to talk to me and I don't know about the other two on my team. If I died tomorrow, no one would notice...Selena would get what she wants, Hikaru could probably care less, and Kon hates me. What's the point Concord? I am tired of pressing forward and never seeing anything. The only thing I am living for is Hans" she said on the verge of tears. Concord only sighed and hugged her. He knew there was a lot going on in that head of hers. Wishing there was more he could do, he felt helpless. "You're depression is talking not the LeeAnn I know. The real LeeAnn would only laugh, shrug, and move on. Where is she? You know for a fact that is all false. Hikaru said you hold a special place in his heart, Kon well... that's Hans's fault, and Selena and you made up. I was there for most of those times. I cannot do anything to help you but time can heal" he said. She wiped the tears and regained her composure. Quietly, she sat there with Concord wishing things would be better with making finer choices.
The point is? [Kon]
Mon Jan 16, 2017 10:32 pm
LeeAnn stood on the edge of the cliff seeing the breath taking view most would walk the whole country. If she ever retired from the Rune Knights, this is where she would live. "Why couldn't I be a cat, a dog, or even a flea? I would for sure not be in much pain for long" she whispered. The wind whirled around her as dead leaves were caught within a reach. She was starting to find it pointless to find her mother, to become the best, or even to live. "What's the point anymore? I live. I give. I hurt. I burn. I suffer. What do you want from me? WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE THIS PAIN?! WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME" she hissed outloud. LeeAnn yelled at the mountains as if she was expecting someone to answer. Concord came rushing over a bit worried, but knew she had a lot on her mind. Some of this she did to herself as well, but she already knew that and didn't want to be reminded. He stayed silent. Anything said may or may not make things worse. She huffed from anger. "It's like Hans is never good enough for people, take things away from me, ruin current thoughts...why do I care so much? People give me the most easiet or the most difficult jobs that would make or break my life. Why is it so hard to keep family? I heard my brother...even without me he would be the same...Hans and you are the only people who actually give a shit. Kon probably doesn't want to talk to me and I don't know about the other two on my team. If I died tomorrow, no one would notice...Selena would get what she wants, Hikaru could probably care less, and Kon hates me. What's the point Concord? I am tired of pressing forward and never seeing anything. The only thing I am living for is Hans" she said on the verge of tears. Concord only sighed and hugged her. He knew there was a lot going on in that head of hers. Wishing there was more he could do, he felt helpless. "You're depression is talking not the LeeAnn I know. The real LeeAnn would only laugh, shrug, and move on. Where is she? You know for a fact that is all false. Hikaru said you hold a special place in his heart, Kon well... that's Hans's fault, and Selena and you made up. I was there for most of those times. I cannot do anything to help you but time can heal" he said. She wiped the tears and regained her composure. Quietly, she sat there with Concord wishing things would be better with making finer choices.
Tue Jan 17, 2017 9:38 pm
For now though he was far more concerned with finding something to eat as he hadn't had much even prior to his match with Selena that had left him battered and bruised. Needlessly to say his day hadn't started off on the best track, wanting to distract himself from his injuries kon decided to look for a nice slightly more upper class restaurant to have his lunch and perhaps enjoy a nice bottle of wine for himself. After spending about ten minutes in the center street of the town he found a small building with a nondescript front and a smartly dressed waiter who invited him inside as he drew closer.
Accepting the invitation to the building he entered into an astoundingly large room with a bar occupying the greater portion of one side, a stage on another and a dozen tables dotted around in the middle of the room dominated by an overhanging crystal chandelier. two different waiters approached him, one removing his robe before taking into a closet and the other calling him forth towards a table assigned for him though another setting had been laid out. Not commenting on who the second person was he awaited the waiter who left to provide him with several menus one of the wine list and the other of the meals. For now though he would wait and choose his selections once the apparent second individual arrived.
Tue Jan 17, 2017 10:03 pm
Though hers is more deeper than that, it was should she exist and was a reason worth reasoning? Since things had not been going well for the young Nakamura. It was his job to keep an eye on her to make sure she doesn't try anything. They made their way through town as LeeAnn was in a nice outfit that was her high class Rune Knight armor as Concord wore a white coat with a cape with matching white pants. They looks filthy rich. The restaurant was top class and they better look the part. It was a code both agreed to. The redhead had a eyepatch over her red and black eye to hide the fact she look odd. Baska town looked a bit calm and someplace she wouldn't mind vacationing to since it was so small. They made it to the restaurant. LeeAnn's cat ears perked up seeing her curiosity was starting to perk up. "Concord, what is this place" she asked. He didn't answer.
There lied a waiter waiting for them. Concord didn't tell her something though. There was another reason why he went here. LeeAnn was studying the room curiously. Her tail tip quivered a little seeing the crystal chandlers like the ones in her home growing up or in the Nakamura mansion that her brother now owned. The waiter took them to the table where she saw a familiar blonde hair at their table they were being lead to. Concord remain unphased as LeeAnn's ears clearly turned back as her tail lashed a little. They sat down with the several menus to choose from as LeeAnn saw her cousin. Her only eye showing blinked a few times then looked back at the menu. "Hello Kon, good to see you" greeted Concord.
Fri Jan 20, 2017 10:50 am
And as he imagined the dish the text and even pictures of main meals changed to include his all time food, honey soy chicken wings it wasn't that it was a refined meal in anyway it was just something that brought Kon back to his mother whom had only really cooked that dish when she ever did cook, a true rarity with maids and chefs looking after the food typically. With his mother having died many, many years ago it was one of the few things that would draw him back to the memories of her. Despite the mess that the wings would make and informal behavior he'd perform to consume them he would order the dish without hesitation.
Interestingly he overheard not just the waiters footsteps but also three other footsteps all vastly different from the other. Curious as to who the other two people were as he was expecting just one, he looked up from the menu and spotted Concord as well as Leeann who seemed to have acquired both cat ears as well as a tail. Only concord chose to greet him with lee seemingly ignoring him entirely. Not one to be the completely anti-social type even to family whom he bared a minor grudge against he responded to Concord with a polite. "Hello." Along giving Lee-ann. "How are you?"
Fri Jan 20, 2017 7:38 pm
A dish she stared at nonchalantly was the Gorumet dish that had Gnocchi covered in Sage-butter sauce with Caujun Seafood pasta platter. The Gnocchi brought her back to her parents who would cook with her as a child. Her father. Her mother and herself. They cooked dinner together all the time until...everything changed. She missed the close bond and would do anything to get it back. Something her and her brother never seemed to have. It was the reason why she had a small grudge against him. She didn't feel needed or actually wanted by him, but wanted to be. The redhead clutched the menu tightly and closed her eye. Slowly, she just pressed her lips together and wiped the only tear. [color=#00ff99]"Concord...Kon.. why can't our families be one big unit again? And not hold grudges"[color] she asked the two of them. Concord perked up and blinked. He knew she was meaning towards her brother with her fiance as well with Kon.
Fri Jan 20, 2017 10:07 pm
Ordering his meal, his focus never falter on his cousin, almost as if he was ignoring the waiter in question, even Concord's presence whilst know was of little concern as his relation was to for the most part only Leeann. His focus allowed him just bearly to see a faint streak run down one of her eyes as if a tear had escaped, understandable since the menu had done something similar to him as well. His cousin finally spoke to him with a curious sentiment, obviously going back to their last encounter that resulted in him becoming offended by the light-hearted attitude that her fiance, Hans oozed in what he considered wasn't appropriate and the aftermath of him storming out on her. Because it was just simply Leeann and Concord a man who he had no real opinion of, his reaction to the question was far more relaxed. "Leeann, I've came to learn that I have two other cousins recently on my mother's side mind you and yes whilst they are important to me, I feel that we hold a bond that if maintained will be even stronger than one I share with them or even my brothers, I can not forgive your fiance, however my opinion stands strong in that regard."
Fri Jan 20, 2017 10:43 pm
"Don't think I already knew that, the way you acted I understand, but you must also know to not jump to conclusions. He meant that to me, not you. He could careless what you do and think hell he doesn't care about anyone else but me. Remember I made the comment about how uneasy I am thinking I am a physcopath or something? That's what he was commenting on. I swear on my mother's and father's and my own lives that's what he meant. Why does no one like him? First my brother now you, sheesh so much for a fucking happy ending and a lovely wedding like I dreamed. Its going to be a bloodbath the way it seems. Ha fuck my life" she replied. Her attitude seemed to change out of stress and less formal. The sailor mouth started to show even more. Her left leg started to fidget out of nerves.
"I mean does no one see what LeeAnn is going through, huh? Has not one even gave a shit about me lately? Saying "hey lets check on the redhead" or a "Hello LeeAnn, Hello Hans"? No! People are nice to me out of sympathy. They feel sorry for me because I am so much in the hole to where I want to kill myself the world would be better off, but I cant because of Hans. Okay? Does anyone understand how much he keeps me from doing anything dumb? No! Because they are not in my shoes...because they havent experienced being insane. I just want people to see what I see in that fluffy brain. Yes he's random and is so carefree I wonder how he does it. Yes he can be rude, but I love him! That's what matters most. If you dont see that, then you are missing out on a really good friend. I am sorry for what he said, but you know what I am so damn tired of worry about perfecting everything about this wedding. I dont care. Hikaru rejected being best man which was my choice. I was going to ask you, but it seems that you and Hans are not on the same page. The offer still stand in your favor. I...am just...going through a extremely difficult time" she said. She looked like she let out a lot of bottled up energy as she sat down seeing people were staring. How could she not care? She just told the whole world everything about her. Why not? The world could read her anyways and prick at her to feel worse about herself right?
Concord stayed silent and amazed how much she had actually thought. She stared at her cousin with a serious stare. Quietly, she sat down now feeling guilty that she lashed out at Kon. People do have opinions and she couldn't force Hans to change it. Taking a deep breath, she pinched the bridge of her nose to release some tension. I
apologize, that was really out of turn for me. You dont deserve that as you do have a right to have your own opinion. I just get really defensive about my fiance as person would if they loved anyone. I see why you are angry with what happened, but you must understand where I am coming from? A brother who doesn't fully approve of this marriage really does tamper on things. Of course, I should of known from my brother. This marriage is the best thing I have in my life and I want people there to share my joy, you know? My...mental health is going to down hill I notice" she said.
Fri Jan 20, 2017 11:41 pm
He knew she’d behave in this manner just as she had many times before however not to this extent her emotions seemed to overflow whilst Kon merely chose to sit there and take it albeit it after crossing his legs and clasping his hands together removing his left hand from his staff trying to focus on particular aspects and components of the long retorts. Several things struck out in his mind, “Meant for me…, Pyschopath…., First my brother now you…” It was clear she was hurting just as he was in a different way though the pain was evident not matter how she wanted to hide it. Before he could offer any piece of advice or comment on her thoughts, she continued.
Her second speal was even longer and far more to the point. “....Gave a shit about me…., ...out of sympathy…, ....kill myself…, ...being insane…” As the woods oozed out of Leeann, Kon merely nodded pausing during key points before nodding again. Eventually however she calmed down slightly and returned to her seat, before giving her last words containing an apology pardoning herself through her behaviour due to poor mental health. It was clear that the shoe was on the other foot this time, Kon if he wished to have her as a friend would have to alleviate her pain and talk her through this patch of her life if she wanted him to otherwise he’d leave her to Hans who apparently was doing a world of help, though he didn’t see it as such.
“Okay.” Clear and straight to the point he commented before reflecting on her words that were still echoing in his mind, and trying to think of a way to respond to the speech as it were, to Leeann without offending her as she seemed extremely delicate at the moment as if a thin sheet in glass stretched too wide and would break at the slightest touch. Because how careful he would be he decided to take it from the accepting point of view even willing to lie to her in regards to Hans if it gave him room into the chaos that was forming inside Lee.
Refraining for trying to comfort her through touch just yet kon slid his hands back as the waiter had conveniently returned to give him time to think as he placed their various meals and drinks in front of him. The food steaming and mixing together through their smell Kon was starting to grow hungry however he knew that he would have to respond to her before taking even the first bite. Swallowing his pride he spoke once more as the waiter left. “Okay, Lee I hold my tongue regarding your fiance, but you need to tell me what’s going on I’ve never treated the way you’re claiming I have, when we first met, we were nothing but fellow rune knights later you cared for me, this time I want to take care of you, there’s something wrong, more than what you’re saying, something of substance, in regards to your brother’s disapproval I’m not to blame I have never met him, you must understand we are the same.”
Sat Jan 21, 2017 8:34 am
It was hard to hide emotion with cat ears giving it away most of the time. Before he could speak, their food came out as her nose lifted smelling her hungry being fulfilled. Her Gnocchi and seafood platter of pasta. She elegant, using her table manners, ate the Gnocchi. Kon finally started to speak how he would refrain from her fiance. It made her feel better a bit to hear that, but clearly she could see it was kinda hard for him to say that. He knew there was something deeper than what she was really telling him. Looking down, this made her easy fold sideways not liking to open up anymore. She mentally clammed up, but hearing Hans's voice telling her to share. It helps to not bottle things up. He was right though Konstantin never treated her that way. His words really wanted to help her, but as stubborn as she was she didnt want sympathy. It took sometime to actually force herself to actually say it, but it finally came out.
Her cat ears folded backwards and looking down with a long and heavy sigh. "I have had everything taken away from me. My family, my respect, my honor, my image, my sanity and most of all my childhood. My childhood was spent being tortured ruthlessly for "medical science". I became sick and got the infection. Hans was the first person who actually gave a shit besides my father. He has done so much for me and spent the last five years never leaving my side literally. We traveled Fiorce looking for my mother and doing missions for hte Rune Knights. I worked ten times harder in the Rune Knights training that you probably did because I was my father's child and most of all my illness. I was treated like crap. A few times I nearly killed several of my comrades because I was being ridiculed, but who where there to stop me? Hans. My whole life has been a really hard struggle. You may hate Hans, but he has saved my life literally and morally. Gave me some sort of a purprose to not end it. I am just as deep in hole as you were when I found you" she explained. She ate her food a little bit and drank her wine. Then cleared her throat to speak again.
"A lot is going on. I want my brother to see how much I want his approval of this marriage. I want him and I to be close because we never were. He's my only sibling from what I know of. Its one of the reason why I act the way I do, to gain his approval. I look up to him, but guess I dont feel important to him. Another thing is just...why does no one see the things I see in people. When I look at a person I can read their behaviors and every aspect because I know how to read based of first impressions. But what do people see when they look at me either A really scarred Rune Knight or a fucking mess. Either way, I am treated like dirt. I have had people spit on me, throw rocks, and call me every name in the book. It gets to me after a while. My childhood was taken away from me, people dont approve of me and Hans together, and I regaining the things I have lost for so long rae out of reach" she said.
Tue Jan 24, 2017 4:17 am
Leeann spoke of her brutal upbringing something Kon despite his hardships was unable to fully relate though he would as a doting friend and family member would attempt to. It had been something he hadn't quite expected though that was something no-one would normally think would be how someone was raised however here she was. Again Kon was perplexed in how he would respond though now that he knew Lee had accepted his assistance he would be able to be far more bold. this was clear when he reached out his right hand towards his cousin and clasped her left hand firmly yet full of as much sympathy he could provide. She continued to reveal her experiences and thoughts for which he had little to be able to respond to only choosing to give a simple. "Okay." once more, Kon have never been the best fo helping out others. He would however give it the best he would for his cousin. "Leeann, it's clear that there are several issues that need to explored between the two of us regarding your wellbeing, I suggest over a period of time we meet up regularly so we can discuss each of them in great detail so you can properly come to terms with what's happened, if you like we can meet up in Orchidia as my stay here in Baska was unexpected and will likely be coming to an end quickly as there is no need for me to stay here besides you and I've been called back to Orchidia once more to perform my duties as a rune knight."
Tue Jan 24, 2017 8:51 pm
Clear like crystal, it was tough. Honestly, accepting help was hard for her since her pride was so high to do everything herself. After all, she was the co-leader and had to provide a perfect image that was flawless and clean. Though, that was never the case with anyone because everyone had flaws. There would be smudges and stains on their image. Who didn't? Apperentally, this was just too hard for her to accept, but she thought of Hans and knowing the promise she made to him. To accept aid, when it is needed most. She gave a deep breath slowly. Her eye glanced down in shame feeling like she was being pathetic then back at her Kon. "Okay. Please...don't tell anyone on the team except Selena if you want to. My brother cannot know. He will think I am stupid and a disgrace for all of this" she said.
Perhaps, she put her brother more of a rolemodel than she had originally thought. She sought his approval. His words were like those of a god to her. When she quickly shfited her mind to thinking her was leaving, her eye gotten wide. "Please dont leave me yet! Please...please...I..don't want to be alone" she said urgently. It sounded off topic and very unlike her. Something was making her tick differently than normal even she didn't know the answer. Though, most definitely it wasn't being Neko or was it making her show her true colors just a tad more?
Fri Jan 27, 2017 6:21 am
Thinking back, he had joined a group at the same time consisting of himself, Leeann, Hikaru, his ever-absent brother and Selena, whom recently beat the daylights out of him and at the moment he was regretting that decision he had found little reason to have been formed or for that matter remains in the group. Given that she was in such a state he'd have to bring up his departure later once they've talked further. Unfortunately for him it didn't seem likely she wanted him to go at all, not that he minded her company, far from it, he found it enjoyable, socialising for the long-lost family which would make it hard for him to accept his absence from the defunct team.
It was just how it had to be at the moment though he'd have to think about it very carefully and continue to play out the rest of their dinner turn psych session. He wasn't a monster, he would never leave a person in this state whether friend or foe particular one of his best friends despite their just recent encounter. For now, though he'd remain with her, just as the candles on the table continued to flicker, Kon released his grip ever so slowly and gently pulled it back if the hand isn't allowed to be pulled back he'd allow it to remain and then place his other hand on it. With a gentle and caring smile seemingly glowing kon spoke to Lee earnestly from the deepest portions of his heart. "Leeann, you are my favourite cousin, I will remain here with you for as long as you need me, I only mention the Orchidia duties as it would be irresponsible for me to not tell you about my jobs, depending on the circumstances of what happens in here why not join me on the way there we can continue our discussion, travelling does open up a lot of things the mind locks away when sitting down." Kon's attention was drawn annoyingly for himself towards the waiter whom was hovering over the right shoulder of Lee he seemed to be holding two additional plates of food neither which was visible from his point of view, the waiter merely spoke to the two. "......"
Sun Jan 29, 2017 7:41 pm
She thought again about her father, Hikaru, and her disgrace of a brother. They were family. All she had. Two out of the three loved her very much. Hans was someone who had to prove to her father and Hikaru that he was worthy of marrying LeeAnn. She knew them all too well. Protective and loving, but also frustration at the same time. Kon grabbed her attention quite quickly. His words were quite comforting. Absence of her mother made her even more of a mess. Her life felt more empty than it ever has been. Her father did what he could and she always had looked up to him. Reason why she is returning the favor to find her mother. Her cat-like ears turned sideways in uneasiness then turned back to flattened. Quickly, she hugged him tightly "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. For everything, I want so much for this pain to go away and for my father to heal. Hans thinks I am putting on too much for myself. My answer will come in time. There is so much I dont know. I think I need to see my father again and tell Hikaru everything" she said.
She let of of her cousin and sat back down. So much does she want to seek revenge and get her mother back. The candlelight was vibrant. She lifted her eyepatch showing her cousin and full blue eye that would be on her right side. A scar was shown through it. "I am a vicitim of so much pain. You wonder what you did to deserve this. Pathetic things such as it will make you stronger are not enough for an answer. I know one thing. It makes you open your eyes to how diverse human nature is" she replied. She looked over to see a waiter hearing over their conversation as she gave a glare from her good eye.
"May we help you?" she asked, a little rudely.
Mon Jan 30, 2017 8:23 pm
Her views on matter really seemed to have changed since their last encounter, it had confused him how someone could change from a bright spark to woman who only sees the worst in things. Despite the changes she was still his cousin and as such he had a duty to help her, the best way he could that and continue on his duties would be to give her is roster of locations. Writing with the skill of years in calligraphy and vast knowledge in his roster from the top of his head, he swiftly etched them on the fine paper with great detail for each location. His attention once lee had finished returned to the waiter whom she had questioned who revealed the plate to be their bills separate in fact which was rather odd for such a fine restaurant unconcerned with his money situation having acquired a large amount fairly recently he swiftly took the opportunity to pay for the two of them before LeeAnn could object.
Knowing his words were not the main source of comfort instead his presence, Kon recognized it would be best if she saw him soon rather than later. Hoping she would follow his suggestion, he finally spoke to her. "Leeann I've only know you for a short time, however I feel that the two of us well become in just a close period of time, I'm giving you my roster for where I'll be stationed for the next month or so, please for your benefit see me when you can, I know you'd prefer me not to leave just yet however I must follow my duties as a rune knight, for now I will say goodbye to you however."
And so with that farewell he slid the note across the table having flipped it over after writing it and towards Leeann, rose from his chair, gathered his staff and with a caring smile spoke to her one last time. "Goodbye Leeann." Before walking out of the restaurant along his blitzle by his left side towards the room he had rented out at a nearby inn, with a mix of emotions whisking around in his head causing questions that hadn't been clear during their conversation earlier. He cursed himself for not demanding she went with him back to Orchidia but it wasn't his place with her holding rank over him.
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