She wasn't sure if it was working. Words have never been the greatest part of her life. She had always done actions. Killing before being killed. She sighed softly as she looked at the wounds. She was able to keep up with it. She didn't want to bite him, so that made it a little easier.
She leaned with her head on her knees and looked at Victoire and Panthello enjoying their Sushi lunch. If she had been human, her stomach would have probably made a noise by now. As a vampire she wasn't hungry, not in a way like that. But she didn't need to eat as much as she had always needed before. "I can see why she likes you." She meaned Victoire, remembering their first encounter where the snow fox hurried to Aonaka his side. Which made them talk.
"It is still something you would have to do. Or well command to do. I won't lie about it. I killed people but in this world it is better to phrase it in a way to kill or be killed. I might be an undead but I like to walk around on the Earth surface a little longer. I do admit that there are people that kill whenever it is possible, not really like that concept I just mentioned. I like to say that I only kill when it is necessary." It was a long time ago that she had said those words. A pain went through her body as she thought about Nathaniel. She told him everything, she could, obviously not everything but enough. Where was he now? She thought about all her former friends. Crowley, dead. Lillith, missing, Minerva, dead. And now she would live forever if she played it safe. She turned her eyes to the ground, they were big and she tried not to cry. She suddenly felt very sorry for herself and for what she was trying to do. "The government would never admit it. But I can tell you that my master is sure. He wouldn't do this if it wasn't necessary." She turned her eyes back to Aonaka, blinking away the possible tears that might be coming, "If I wasn't sure myself I wouldn't have fought for this cause. Most of the time we just do our jobs given by the people in the cities, the informants from our Guild or I-.. somebody that is like the Master his right hand." She had almost slipped out the name Icarus, but she shouldn't. "We live like normal citizens in the cities. We need to protect ourselves. This is why we use code names like Irony. Or we don't use our own names, I should have known we had some sort of connection, I know it sounds stupid but I told you my real name. Nastasya. Normally I go by Lilja Oswald." She might even tell her code name if he would ask. She was so close, he seemed to understand. She even heard the name Illumin. She didn't smile, because she didn't believe in them and her job was still to destroy the church but she had lost sight of Caius so she didn't.
She looked in front of her, changing her cheek to her chin as she stared into the dark nothing that was surrounding them. She could see enough though, "What would happen if you join? There will be some tests. It all depends on everyone. To figure out if they can trust you. Our organisation, our Guild, it is so fragile. If the government would know, they would kill us, and all we try to do is safe magic." She frowned but didn't look at Aonaka again, "I would say you would have to try and gather as much information, like we all try to do. Or like we also try to do is just jobs. Keep magic flowing. Since I don't know your full potential as a mage, even as healer. You could be a lot of help in our fight against the government. But because we are all in some sort of hiding, too obvious to be close to the government, we don't have a lot of information." She sighed, it was really difficult to explain and to lie. She had to come up with reasons every damn second.