She had been pondering intensely about the thoughts that occupied her mind. At one side she felt that it would be rude to force Fia to leave the Rune Knights, but in the wake of the events in Oak she didn't want to experience such a feeling ever again. To be forced to leave her behind and go fight in a battle elsewhere... They had made a vow that they would be fighting for each other, and for those they loved, and those fights they would experience side by side. However, it was a sudden cough from nearby that quickly drawn her attention, causing the girl to raise her head and gaze at the stranger in bewilderment.
"Umm..." She blinked in confusion, her mismatched eyes looking at him, and a quick cursory glance made her notice something quite familiar to her: a set of pointed ears. It reminded her of Liana after she had undergone her transformation into an elf, an ancient rite that had made her lose her humanity and gain the same bond a pureblooded elf had with nature.
"I don't know..." the girl spoke hesitatingly, but it was at that moment the butler at her side chimed in. "Young Master, maybe it might not be a bad idea to hear the opinion of a neutral party?"
It was a suggestion that made a lot of sense! Perhaps this man was merely a traveler who had come to enjoy the festivities in Oak, and she would be able to get his opinion on her feelings without needing to worry about the fact that they might share the same type of 'connection' she had with her friends.
"Alright~ You're right Sebastian~ I guess that's the wisdom of one who serves Asmodeus~ Very well, I'll follow your advice then."
She rose from her seat to properly greet the man, a playful little wave of her hand following before extending it in an attempt to offer a handshake as she introduced herself properly. "My name is Esperia~ It's a pleasure to meet you sir-?" Seemingly hoping to get his name she continued her explanation after gesturing for him to take a seat beside her.
"You see, I am dealing with a very big problem. It's my Fiance..." She paused for a moment, her cheeks flushing up lightly as she smiled briefly and continued. "We're supposed to get married soon, but recently she was called away to fight in a battle that wasn't hers to fight... She's a Rune Knight you see, so Fia had to go and answer the call to arms when they were ordered to apprehend the members of the Phantom Lord guild upon discovery of their hideout..."
She sighed deeply, leaning her back against the bench and briefly looking up at the sky. "I hated being left behind, obviously I knew she only went because of her work, but it still hurt me a lot, and I was terrified she might not even return, after the war in Crocus I realize such things might happen more often than people might think..."
She explained sorrowfully, as she leaned forward and looked at the elf, her lips curving back into a smile as she clarified further, clearly becoming more cheerful as she revealed the happy news.
"So Fia told me she was going to leave them, once the battle was over we would end up finally being selfish and only fight for ourselves and those we love and care about. Too often do we get dragged into conflicts that aren't our own."
But then came the part that troubled her, her smile wavering as she asked him hesitatingly. "I just want to be with her as much as possible, that's natural when you love your fiance so much, right?"
Still, she shifted her gaze briefly downwards, a hand trailing to her upper-left leg where beneath the kimono the guild tattoo of the Blue Pegasus was located, nicely on the outer side of her leg.
"But... I worry about the future... Making her leave the Rune Knights, knowing she might have made friends there, just to be with me more often... while I remain with my friends in Blue Pegasus? It feels like I'm being a hypocrite then."
A soft sigh escaped her lips as she whispered softly. "Of course, I don't want to simply leave everyone behind. I made so many friends in the guild, and so many fond memories. Like you know, there is this girl called Alisa in our guild who constantly threatens to tie me up! And then you got our leader Snowflake, who gives really nice hugs, but something tells me she is more dangerous than Alisa, like Alisa might tie me up if Asmodeus makes me get perverted thoughts again, but Snow? She might put me six feet under" the girl exclaimed with a soft giggle.
"Not that I have those thoughts mind you! I have been training really hard with Alisa to become a classy lewdling! so now I can control such thoughts, because I want to be loyal to Fia~ Although Asmodeus does make it hard sometimes... Did you know, despite her name Snow is actually really nice? like she makes you feel really warm when she shows concern, like when she visited me in the hospital in Baska!"
A little grin lingered on her lips. "And then there is my childhood friend Liana and--- ah~ I guess I started ranting."
A little giggle followed as she shook her head lightly to clear her mind.
"I'm sorry~ It's just that those thoughts been haunting my mind for so long, and I don't know what to do... I kind of want to try to make her join Blue Pegasus, but what if she doesn't fit in with everyone?"