"Oooooh no lad, there is no suffering alone when I'm around. No, no, ye'd be suffering with company, see. Would I ease the pain of life? Maybe. But more than likely, I substitute it with another. The dreadful misery only this lass could burden ye with. Or it's just as they say, misery likes company, don't it?" Lumikki giggled over her absurdity and the pleasant change of his expression. She was not sure her words reached him, almost certain that he was simply humoring her. Akin to when someone says yes and then forgets or sticks to their ways. It wasn't a simple thing changing. Lumikki knew that all too well. But if leaving him to do otherwise could only extend the distance between, then Lumikki needed to prove herself an essence that is ever lingering. Enough to permeate that sorrowful loneliness of his and negate a lot of his worse habits....Hel, now that she thought it...those were some habits of her own as well.
"Sure, sure lad. Ye left an impact alright...The impact of one yer blows, that is. Ya know Yuurei yer extremely vexing; ya know that? Honestly, and I'm the Demon...." Lumikki drank the rest of her wine in one go while flagging the bartender for another. She didn't stop until he glanced at her, and she'd finally put her glass back down.
"Yea Yuurei...we are oddly quite alike in a myriad of ways, aren't we? Yer tendency to do things alone is something I tend to pay a toll for meself. Over and over, I do not learn...all the more reason to see the change in ya isn't it? I mean, out of the two of us, yer suppose to set the example." The bartender slid the next drink, taking her last glass with him. She'd pull it toward her, swirling the burgundy wine in a fighting daze, her ice softly creeping along the glass.
"Very alike, and inversely different. What do ye think about it? Hel, what do ye even know of me Yuurei?" Lumikki took another long sip. The chilled wine was refreshing. Helping her to take a moment and ease her mind. "When the feathers fall, would ye say yer the angel, or am I?" Her voice was soft as a whisper. The comment was less for him and more just a passing thought spoken outwardly. She never spent enough time with him to catch such passing musings. She never once really paid it any mind.
"The dusk and dawn, the demon and angel, the mage and warrior, the dark and light, black and while, nurturing mother and stern father. Duality is amusing...I never thought I'd find meself in it, especially with ye. I remember ya know, the first moment we met. It was in the library, and I smudged yer book with darkness as a jest. Ye were reading about the past war before I disturbed yer peace and ye'd chase after in imposing manner. Reading me every move long before I did it. But then we sat and talked, and ye'd listen to me woes then. I felt a monster at the time, incomplete and horrendous. But ye'd sooth those fears, wiping it all away with mention of me potential 'nd beauty. How the dark in me wasn't so horrid at all and that, like ye, I could transcend into something more. To which I did, but it was to yer behest. Ya were the only one at the time to guide me...see me for what I am. I adored ya for it, admired ya too. I longed for what ye had, and yer words would spark me hunger. It was like I was staving, me passions were ravenous. Everything I've done was to serve that cause, that goal and desire. Until eventually it wasn't enough, I needed more. I needed to be among ye and Brone. Maybe not in the image of a hero, but something akin. Something ye could lean on. So I clawed, climbed, fought. All for the chance to be seen again, maybe even admired. Perhaps this is where me dissatisfaction came when ye left me to the wayside. Only returning for another battle. Every defeat, I could hear the words pounding in me head and drowning out me mind. Will I never be enough? Was it hopeless? Quite the pain it was, and it haunted me for a time. Almost to the point I got lost in it...But here I am, alive and well and perfectly sane....least I like to think. Heh, maybe those Demons in yer head is some sort of twisted karma. Tormenting a Demon brought ye two more." The last bit brought her a chuckle but not enough to ease her mood. She'd chug the rest of the wine in her glass for that while pondering what to drink next.
"Bring me what he had, if ye don't mind. But I want it in a large glass like this." She'd get the bartender's attention again, putting a Yuurei's drink before lifting her glass and pointing at it next. His face would scrunch when he heard her, but not enough to be reluctant and ignore her request. Lumikki wasn't she want to think or feel right now.