She listened. The wood elf had darkness like everyone else in this whole world. This day in age everyone's hands were blood-soaked. Some were more dirtier than others. Lee's were covered in damages from torture, being a Rune Knight, and many other things. Most were understandable, but others were not. The kitsune watched her future ace basically mentally crumble under the pressure Lee was giving unintentionally with her eyes. Atani didn't even needed to speak a word for her to understand everything she was about to say. Her body spoke for her. Back when she was younger, her father and grandfather were in wars and battles to the point they had to kill people. She knew the weight it laid upon them to this day that they would fight tooth and nail for their family. Lee's father basically was a helicopter parent after she returned from being kidnapped. In many ways, Lee was very blessed in hidden ways.
Atani became very timid. Though, slowly she spoke about everything on her mind. She want to be reliable and dependable for her, but there were many things she was unsure about. The more LeeAnn listen, the more she now understood. Lee, herself, had never take a life, but for sure has tortured souls wishing for death. In some cases, she was worse off. It was never easy from what she heard from Manzo and her own family. Though, she could only imagine. The thought of that much weight on one's shoulders from the beginning is only unimaginable. She thought for a few minutes before coming up with something. "In a situation like yours, it's never easy. There will be no words that can help, but time. Time is the only cure for something like this" she started. LeeAnn thought back to how mentally weak she was and still is to her previous 'illness' and now with the corrupted spirit, Caspien, calling her mind home or trying to.
"There was something my brother once said to me years ago. You have a choice in everything you do, even when it doesn't feel like it. You can let this eat you up and make you feel helpless or you can fight. This dark spirit. This guilt. It's only weighing you down, Atani. Nor Manzo, nor Raymus, nor I can truely know your pain 100%, but as a friend and guildmaster, it's bet to find a way to help those in need. Let me be that shoulder you can lean on 100% and you'd be mine" she spoke. Both of her hands were on the wood elf's shoulders with their eyes meeting face-to-face. LeeAnn shifted her emotions to help Atani. "Look at me, Atani. Don't droop your eyes. You cannot keep holding these emotions back. They will only destroy you from the inside out til' you attempted to commit suicide right off the face of the earth. You're friend was the only one able to help you. Don't do what I did! Please! You have to let this out, let nature take its course. What's done is done. Only marching forward to a brighter future" she spoke. She was being a little persistant with the encouragement. Though, her eyes spoke of personal pain wishing no one would do what she had done. When her aunt had died from an illness, she left the family and left with Manzo. After Manzo abandon her, she was at her lowest point. Zalor, her gryphon mount, was the only one that stopped her that day from doing that act.
"You have a lot to live for. When my aunt died, I left my family to be with Manzo. After he abandon me, I was so down and dark that I almost ended it multiple times, but my gryphon stopped me from doing it each time. I have never told anyone this before" she spoke.