She would grab his hand with both of hers. Her way to make sure he wouldn't that his hand away just yet. And she would just lean into his palm and close her eyes.
"Ye know, I always wanted and waited ta see if ye'd ever go on top. Though I think ye've come ta like me on ya too." She would tease before just sinking to the moment of feeling his warmth on her face,
humming a song that brought her much comfort and much serenity.
She was afraid she was too much as she always had a tendency for. The Obscura always made her emotions intense. Both her hatred and her passions would flood her entirely. And so she would devote herself to those sensations, almost losing herself in a way. Not by the darkness that she figured would take her, what she held defenses for, no but her own passions and intensities. Her ravenous desires and plights to feel every bit of it for just as long as she ever could.
This became one of her passions. The poor Daemon girl is still too young and naive. She did love the wolf and that would be true, but she never for once considered how it would break her. She never considered the gravity of her convictions and afflictions colliding.
Thankfully an event like this would usually only happen once. One does not usually pledge themselves more than once often. Not many choose the hel of making the mistake many times. To her, she was one of the girls in the many stories she had read, and if she could work to be the one with the most power in her story, then just maybe she could also be the hero as well.
Who is to say if one is a hero or villain? Life is a series of twists and turns that toss you around more than the chaos from within. Yet Lumikki, a child who never feared the dark, the Abyss, or ever feared she would lose herself to them, now chooses to lose herself to something else entirely. With the conviction of a Dwarf, and the passions granted to her by her mother. She hoped that one day, all that she did would be worth it....The naive Daemon finally let the wolf's hand go. Cupping his face with both her hands herself. She was usually scared to touch him, worried she would scare him away and lose the warmth she had.
Yes of all the things this Daemon could fear....it was ever scaring him away. Of making him hate her....Not even the pits of the Abyss shook her, but this little intimacy she found, one she thought would be rarer than even herself. She could not bear to ruin it...."Ye don't deserve the bad things within yer life either. But living ta be a joy in yers would only mean the world ta me. Please let me be the darkness ye run to. The one ye go to when ye need to escape. As the sweet darkness from the primordial mother, I swear ta accept te in all yer forms. With all yer vice and virtues. I ask for nothin in return but yer affections, company, and kindness. So too have darkness ta run to when all I crave is smothering meself away." She leaned forward and kissed him on his forehead and then his nose. Looking to him with a bitter-sweet smile of her own.
"Ye know, there's even pleasure in the pain. There is something savory in something that tastes bittersweet. And I too am curious of how strong I am in holding all me pieces together. This was always me own choice. Cutting me off would hurt me more than any rejection ever could. Ye don't ever have ta love me, ye just...please don't abandon me...." Her wings covered her face in an instant. The Daemon obscured in her moment. Her other wings all would open, letting the world from out flood the within. Her darkness coiled around her waist to pull her away. Holding her in the air as her wings would close again with only herself inside. She didn't predict her tears and she dared not risk him seeing them. Not after that! No...not at all. She had to prove herself strong after all. Otherwise, it would all be for not. Otherwise, he really would leave her because he'd figure it was for the best.
She iced herself so fast her tears would freeze, opening one of her wings to let the wolf peek back in.
"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry. I won't, I won't do that again. I was just nervous. The Obscura, it just got a lil much was all. I'm OK now!" She still hid in her feathers, but she couldn't bear the pain of him seeing right through her.