She was fighting the pain and the ice water in her veins. Trying to understand the flashback as she looked up and tried to focus on the here and now. This was the part where Konstantin seemed to handcuff the pastor or was he a priest, as the others were so close to focus on them. She didn't want to cry, she didn't like crying (who did anyway) but she especially didn't want to show a weakness in front of these people, she was a knight damnit! Why was this happening in a church and why was it so busy here. Why was Magnolia doing this to her, it wasn't fair. She hadn't done anything wrong. She had thought for a second that if she was dead, a ghost, if she deserved it but now she simply understood that it was a moment of fear. She didn't want to feel that.
She removed the hand from her heart, it still did hurt, there was still a headache as well as heartache but she didn't want to feel it, she had done nothing wrong, for as far she could remember. The disgust she had just seen on Lacie her face, it wasn't her. All she needed was answers and this guy was going to give it to her or she would find Lacie. She took a step closer again, her expression hidden by her hair, she was no longer comfortable with wearing a dress but that would come later. She noticed the footsteps from the other illumin and turned her angry brown eyes on them, she deserved the answers and this guy was going to give them to her. The people had already been slightly afraid of Konstantin, which was with obvious reason but apparently she was scarrier. Fine this dress was a no go. She was still behind Konstantin but took a step to the side to turn to look at the pastor that would profide them answers, she held up her hands a little and transformed into blue jeans, a black t-shirt and her leather jacket. She was using magic now and she was a hundred percent sure she didn't have magic before, when she was suppose to be dead. She kept the blue backpack on her back with Ophelia, who never liked the transformation but apparently the little creature understood the pressure of the situation, as she remained quiet.
She let Konstantin lead, for her brain couldn't make the connection anymore of saying anything, her feelings were mixed up. They walked out of the church, she kept an eye on the pastor as she didn't want him to suddenly shake them off, but he didn't do such a thing, apparently he was afraid enough. He should be glad that she was off his so called sacred ground. She was surprised by her own thoughts, she was able to be sarcastic again. She wondered where they would go because she didn't want the pastor to know where she stayed. she watched the bars and cafes that they passed, no one was looking at them because they were just walking, no need to stare.
She looked at Konstantin for a second and was glad he was with her, if she had been alone, she wouldn't manage to come this far. She walked to a bar owner, asking if he had a private room for them to talk as the man stood outside sweeping. she paid him for the room and gestured for Konstantin and the pastor to come. It didn't take long before they all settled, she didn't order antyhing, she didn't want the barkeep to disturb them. "Explain to me what happened." Maybe the pastor was putting two and two together for it seemed that he started to notice that she didn't remember anything, he seemed to relax a little with that information.
"Well Rowena told me that at early age, there was a too big difference between miss Lacie and you." he still said you as if she was something dirty and gross, she didn't like that. She stared at the pastor with her brown eyes though, she was definitely angry, the best way instead of crying for mercy. "Since Rowena has been with the Illumin a long time we knew that she understood quickly what was happening, your behaviour was not normal." When he said that, she understood that he had never seen her, "Did I come to the Cathedral?", "No, you weren't allowed." She wanted to roll her eyes but refrained from it. The Pastor continued to tell that for a few years that they tried everything, mostly Rowena, was that her mother?, to fix the problem with her being possible possessed, when there were no options, they had decided to do a ritual with her family members, her aunts, her mother and her sister Lacie, to rid her off evil and send her back to the abyss as she was the vessel and they couldn't cleanse her of the evil spirit within. They had thrown her out of the tower that was their home for the last year and which was destroyed the moment she died, the magic that was released from her anger or the demon made sure that everything went wrong. Lacie and Rowena managed to escape as well as one of her aunts but the other three died in the matter. This was proof that Alice was the devil. She died twelve years ago, so how come she was here right now?
With that last sentence he stared at her, his eyes now full of anger and fear and not understanding. He wanted to know as well, but she didn't have answers. Maybe that ritual that her family performed made it so that she lost her memory?