Lumikki thought the thing he said about the mask over. Understanding herself how important a sense of identify and expression were. When she first left to be a part of Dawn, she only bore the horns of her Pa’s clan. She was only comfortable with that side of her family after Nan died. She couldn’t bear representing her raven side because of all the pain she felt. But after the war as doing what her ancestors used to do. She could not deny how much she was like her Nan and the Omena clan. She wanted nothing more than to show it, adorning herself with many black feathers and wear her Nan’s old dress during missions and battles.
”Aye, I get it Ùlfr. Suppose its much like mine. It connects me with me clan and where I came from. It shows others just what I am. I didn’t always present so raven. I didn’t always show me Demi-Human side. After I lost someone so dear to me, I couldn’t bear to be reminded of her. I was somewhat regretful of it. Looking back at it now, it was so immature. But it was me deep grief that forced me Mum to push me out and send me to the Dawn. She could not bare watch me wither, nor could I bear to be without me Nan. It wasn’t until recently, during the war, that i felt the most alive by doing what me clan was known to do.” She played with her Night Raven Ring on her finger. Though she didn’t realize she was. She then moved a hand to just below her belly button.
”I got the ram here as a token of me Dwarven family, the Hrútr clan. To carry out how much they made me to me core. I have so much love for them. But now I need to figure out more how I want to honor the Omena of me.” She giggled,”And maybe one day perhaps the Winters in me,” Lumikki teased.
She tucked her mask away.
”We are still so young Michael. Too young to be expected to have a lot done yet. Ye still have a long lifetime in ya to build what take yer fancy. Ya just have to let it be. Ye never thought ye’s meet me, nor the things that came of it. How could ya figure to plan what in life yer made for? No something like that takes time. Sure I want to be a Demon, and that could be seen as a plan. But once I make the change, then what? What is there left for me. I would be just as lost soon enough, I don’t know what I want to do then.” She looked down at him and smiled. ”So I’m just hoping to keep enjoying me time. Pick things I want to pursue, so on.”
She went back to leaning back and stroking his hair. Thinking to herself, what really would she like to do after she’s met her goal. Everything feels like it goes by too fast sometimes. When she was a Demon, would it move even faster?
She looked back down after she heard what he said. ”It’s small, aye, but ya always have a place to belong with me. All of ya… And in time, ye’ll get strong without even realizing,” she pinched his cheek. ”But ye’ll have to start getting to work. A lil at a time me Pa would say. How the river would always patiently erode the stone over time, so we too just gotta keep running like the river. If ya do want to get stronger, ye could work with me if ye like. Missions would be more fun in yer company, and the raven I sent ya could always keep us in touch.”
She took a bite out of the darkness and thought it over some more. ”I really want to see what it’s like watching ya fight in full power. I’m curious.” She nibbled on more darkness. ”Ye won’t have to worry about protecting me…if I could help it.”